hollowdemons

Why have you left me in all this darkness, which scares my soul out. Why did you promise me a love never ending, and then left.  It haunts me, that my teenage without you is now just another worthless wait. I won't fall in love with somebody else like you will, i won't kiss anyone without thinking of how your lips tasted. Everytime i would hug someone i will crave the warmth of your body. Every time somebody would ask me if i've had lunch, i'll miss how you scolded me for skipping. Everytime i'll walk in the park, the trees will remind me of you. Everytime i will miss you, somebody will kiss you. I wish i was still clean of your scars, your smiles and my scars somehow resemble, everytime you'll drown in his chest laughing so hard that your stomach would hurt, my heart will drown. But am i not so strong? I don't let my tears out infront of you. I don't complain of how low you've treated me. How somebody will kiss your entire neck and i'll be...

"Sometimes it shakes my hands and send shivers down my spine when somebody takes your name. And they ask about my heart break. It is breaking and breath taking at the same time. I love talking about you, i love telling people how i loved you so much and you never loved me back. It feels so beautiful to tell all those minor details which hit my mind when i start talking about you to someone. It feels like living the whole thing again, and drinking the same poison again. I tell them how we slept under the same blanket, the one i still use, and the one that still has the scent of your body. When underneath that, you used to look at me with your dark eyes, and roll your hair behind your neck. When we were just at a hairline distance and your arms touched me gingerly, as you shook your head to console me if i have had a bad day. When we kissed, like we had no other objective and i still find the taste of your lips over mine. Although its been months now, since we last met. I dont ...

In the end it is nothing in my palms, rather than hurt. Hurt in my eyes, chest and deep within all my veins. There is hurt. I don't know why you did that to me, and why did you promise me things you couldn't keep. Did i give you any less of me? Did i distributed myself for people and gave you just a part? No. I gave you the whole me. The best of what i had. All my love. All my sorrows. All my smiles and all my tears. I dont understand how people just get up and leave, i dont understand why cant two people just be together even when they want to. Probably because the universe is a lie. When the sun comes up, the light is a lie. When the moon reflects your image on water, maybe that is a lie. When i recall all my dreams with you, maybe that is a lie. I am trying to move on and forget you, but a part of me is still you. You exist within me. You exist within my tears. You exist when i suddenly stop laughing, that is where your thoughts hit me. When i travel al...

The destruction no one knows about. The hurt no one saw. The smile i no longer have. Thank you. 

I miss you and i dont know how to explain what it feels like. It haunts me to lie in all these isolations i was thrown down in, it hurt me to know that the only rope i held on had glass within. It was a beautiful journey from stranger to lovers and from lovers to strangers, with you. It was beautiful when you exhaled warm air on my neck, and it was beautiful when you used to dress up and ask 'How do i look?'. I still dont know if somebody has ever told you that you had the most beautiful eyes. I see you, i still see you almost every night when i fail to sleep. I see you besides me and you put your hands across my chest and hug me, and then i feel like home. But i can no longer touch you now, is it just a vision? Or is it something i was made to go through? What was the point of letting me in when you ultimately had to push me out, what was the point of choosing me when you had to drop me like a glass vase. I don't even know how to hate you, i would recognise your voi...

I remember the time when you said you would never leave, the time when you embraced me up in your presence and i found a home in your heart. I remember you told me you won't push me out if it, but wait, what happened?  Just yesterday you walked right past me, you saw me and i saw you like we were nothing more than the strangers. I recall how you rolled eyes, like you never knew me, like we never talked. Go back, go back to those nights when we used to talk all night long, when your voice echoed through my ears in a room with just us for 7 hours without a lag. Go back to the times when you pecked on my lips and traced your fingers down my neck explaining me why you loved that song. Go back and recall the time when you never sung but you always used to sing when i started to sing. Go back to the time when i was the first person you came home to, although you were thousands of miles apart. Go back to the times when you first told me you were in love with me and i confessed too, i ...

I know you are gone, but you have not yet left. You maybe his, but you are mine. Let me tell you something, there are silents moments in my life. There are silents moments in my room. There are silent moments when i brush my teeth and there are silent moments when i comb my hair in the morning. It is just me and myself. But the problem is you are still here. Do you remember when you said i won't be able to make it, so i changed.  Now, i talk to myself. In the silent moments, i recall every little detail about you, lets hate kissing all the time, i recall when i felt the power of your disbelief in me  You are gone, but you have not yet left.  You are the reason i run an extra mile for my exam.  You are the reason i wake up at 4, and get to the gym.  You are the reason, i hit more weight.  You are the reason, i run a mile in 6 minutes which i used to run in 16 minutes.  You are the reason, i realise i am a human and my life had value goddamnit. ...