lets hate kissing all the time

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I know you are gone, but you have not yet left. You maybe his, but you are mine. Let me tell you something, there are silents moments in my life. There are silents moments in my room. There are silent moments when i brush my teeth and there are silent moments when i comb my hair in the morning. It is just me and myself. But the problem is you are still here. Do you remember when you said i won't be able to make it, so i changed. 
Now, i talk to myself. In the silent moments, i recall every little detail about you, lets hate kissing all the time, i recall when i felt the power of your disbelief in me 
You are gone, but you have not yet left. 
You are the reason i run an extra mile for my exam. 
You are the reason i wake up at 4, and get to the gym. 
You are the reason, i hit more weight. 
You are the reason, i run a mile in 6 minutes which i used to run in 16 minutes. 
You are the reason, i realise i am a human and my life had value goddamnit. 
You are the reason, i admit to cry when i recall ourselves. 
That one girl, just one human on Earth who i chose stabbed me. Did not put faith in me. Did not trust me. And by leaving, became my worst critic. So listen up, i want you to be there when i succeed. I want you to clap for me like i clap for my own goddamn self because i can. And i will. I remeber every fucking promise i made, and i am gonna do it. For you. For country. For God. For myself. 
The tragedies and trials come to everybody, 
But only the strong survive.

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