hollowdemons

I lied. You leaving me wasn't okay and it never will be okay. But you lied to me too. You made promises to me that will never be kept those promises vanished into thin air just like how our forever did. When you left me, you took everything. They call me foolish for still loving you. For letting those three blissful words slip through my lips  and into the dark lonely longing air to reach you. But how can i move on when you still have my heart and your voice still resonates through my body and your smile lives in my eyes and everytime my mind wanders it goes directly back to you. I still remember everything and my god i could forget because maybe i wouldn't be hurt this bad. I still remeber the sound of my crying breaking the unbearable silence as we sat there. I remember the way your hands felt on my cheeks as you wiped away my tears. I remember the look in your eyes and the way your voice sounded as you said you loved me for the last time... I miss you more than anythi...

The sun will rise and we will try again.  Your existance is something which never goes un-noticed. I don't text you back, but i read all your texts around ten times a day and end up being shocked that you no longer exist with me. I wanna hold you back, tell you how you meant the world to me and i was nothing. I wanna sit across the table, and cry it out to you how beautiful it was to spend my teenage with you, and laugh on how we did silly things but you're no longer here.  I wanna fall in love again, i wanna find love again but that never happens. The other girl, is never gonna be you. You destroyed me, but everything that causes destruction is addictive, and you're the worst of my addictions. Slowly, i wanna go back in time, and change things, or sink in your skin and change your mind, or just kiss you and say a goodbye but darling, i can't do any of them. I wanna talk to you all day long but you don't deserve my attention. I wanna hold you close but the...