how you meant the world to me and i was nothing

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The sun will rise and we will try again. 
Your existance is something which never goes un-noticed. I don't text you back, but i read all your texts around ten times a day and end up being shocked that you no longer exist with me. I wanna hold you back, tell you how you meant the world to me and i was nothing. I wanna sit across the table, and cry it out to you how beautiful it was to spend my teenage with you, and laugh on how we did silly things but you're no longer here. 
I wanna fall in love again, i wanna find love again but that never happens. The other girl, is never gonna be you. You destroyed me, but everything that causes destruction is addictive, and you're the worst of my addictions. Slowly, i wanna go back in time, and change things, or sink in your skin and change your mind, or just kiss you and say a goodbye but darling, i can't do any of them. I wanna talk to you all day long but you don't deserve my attention. I wanna hold you close but the pure blood from my scars shouldn't touch your body. 
I trusted you not to break me any further, but you did. 
I hope, when i die, they bury in me in the fractions of ashes,  in every city you have ever felt alone.
But, 
The sun will rise, but we', we won't try again.

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