TAB TUM KHAN THAY !!

• It hurts the most to know that in a while my darling you'll go away and go away for ever. To a place where you won't return from. To a world of happiness, settling up with your life and making the best out of it with the smiles on your face. 
  I remember us, i remember the night in which i asked you for your hand and you said a yes, that was without a doubt the happiest night of my life, and now what circus is this to watch you go away, with somebody else. Oh this is unbearable. This shackles every blood cell in my body. Every little limb and bone of my body. It grabs me up from the neck and chokes me the hardest it can, it makes me not being able to breathe properly, i can not go to sleep, i can not even eat because i miss how you were always there when i had skipped my lunch and you scolded me for doing that. Ultimately forcing me to eat. I miss when i used to blow cigarettes all night and the bare amount of your company made me forget all the worldly sorrows, and i had forgotten how disastrous my life had been when you were not there. But then again to our endless yet numbered days together, 
  1. I'll miss you in the prayers i'll pray, and won't even be able to ask you anymore from the the lord i cried in front of. Just to have you. 
  2. I'll miss us. And i'll never be happy again without you, because it was always you who made my life beautiful. 
  3. They say we were born alone. And we die alone. But no that's not happening. Because in my demise, there will be a rebirth. Your rebirth. 
  4. Please don't miss me, please don't shed a tear as they pick up my coffin to get me bedded, don't. 
  5. I will always pray, dead or alive, that you have all the happiness in your life because darling you're too fragile to bear this pain. This pain will mould you into someone you aren't. 
  6. I hope you grow up, have a nice family and on a family vacation as you sit on the beach, you'll see my love in the non existing yet visible horizon. 
  7. I hope you have daughters. And when you're daughters have lover, like you once had me, please don't part them away from them. This is a pain unmatchable, a situation beyond the control of us humans .I hope, i wish, i pray, your life turns out to be the greenest garden, you turn out to be the most fruitful tree, and you family will do the branches. 
• In all those moments my love, you will forget me, you'll at times feel my soul touching you, but you won't be able to see me. I'll come with no visibility, but now that you've murdered me, my mother told me the murdered soul always ponder, so i'll just be your guardian soul. I'll always be looking at you, protecting you from everything in every way possible. 
  Because darling, you'll always be that little girl of mine who i found on 28th of October, 2016.