2am: as i lied in the stillness of night with a bare company of someone i love. Wrenched and shattered little heart and brain of mine said we're through with you but we weren't. We three little shit pieces never did move on.
I'll tell you how,
A boy who you didn't reply had a million questions in mind. Like, is there anybody else? What would she be up to at 2 in the night? She just said she was in the bed and so am i so what is going on? Where's she?
Is there somebody else? Anyone else more important? Maybe she's changed or maybe she's find someone better. Maybe a company to her which means more or maybe she's just ignoring me? My emotions in the well. My heart sinking. Everything in short goes through my mind.
One reason. Love.
I fell in love with you at a very vulnerable age, and as i matured up, i realised there was no living without you. All i wanted, want and ever will want is you.
And what do i get? Broken promises. Useless talks. No hopes. No hope. Not even one hope.
Somebody who promised a life together has no hope to give. No hope seriously? In your lonely nights, holding your hands as i promised to never let go and to secure Our future together, i remember that smiling face, i remember those shy eyes, i remember those hairs you deliberately put on your face in that moment. That was when you fell in love with me. And with time, your feelings faded. What is more painful. To know that you're gone? Or to imagine you might realise you were supposed to have a life with me? Which is more painful.
Now that it chokes me. Pulls my hair and stabs me in heart. Tell me what is painful? The bleeding body or the sinking heart? Can you describe that.
I know you won't. You already are gone. But still i am asking,
You knew no one will be able to love you like i did. Why did you leave? If in your entire life you wanna return home.
Then remember regardless of pain i can't put to words, the doors will never close for you.
When you come running in your sadness.
My arms will be wide open to hug and join you, but please never tell me to love you again. Because you left once. And i died with the clock ticking.
I'll tell you how,
A boy who you didn't reply had a million questions in mind. Like, is there anybody else? What would she be up to at 2 in the night? She just said she was in the bed and so am i so what is going on? Where's she?
Is there somebody else? Anyone else more important? Maybe she's changed or maybe she's find someone better. Maybe a company to her which means more or maybe she's just ignoring me? My emotions in the well. My heart sinking. Everything in short goes through my mind.
One reason. Love.
I fell in love with you at a very vulnerable age, and as i matured up, i realised there was no living without you. All i wanted, want and ever will want is you.
And what do i get? Broken promises. Useless talks. No hopes. No hope. Not even one hope.
Somebody who promised a life together has no hope to give. No hope seriously? In your lonely nights, holding your hands as i promised to never let go and to secure Our future together, i remember that smiling face, i remember those shy eyes, i remember those hairs you deliberately put on your face in that moment. That was when you fell in love with me. And with time, your feelings faded. What is more painful. To know that you're gone? Or to imagine you might realise you were supposed to have a life with me? Which is more painful.
Now that it chokes me. Pulls my hair and stabs me in heart. Tell me what is painful? The bleeding body or the sinking heart? Can you describe that.
I know you won't. You already are gone. But still i am asking,
You knew no one will be able to love you like i did. Why did you leave? If in your entire life you wanna return home.
Then remember regardless of pain i can't put to words, the doors will never close for you.
When you come running in your sadness.
My arms will be wide open to hug and join you, but please never tell me to love you again. Because you left once. And i died with the clock ticking.
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